Wednesday, December 11, 2013

"What Would You Do" Show and more Woman Bashing

Here is the video where a Black woman actress bashes a black man actor who is dating a white woman who is also an actress on the show called "What Would You Do".

We have been bamboozled. When does a Black woman vocalize how she feels about what a black man dates in public? She never, in a public setting behaves that "out of order". The actress what out of order for saying anything about a man's love interest. But in a set up the goal is to go over the top to make a bizarro point, which was???

The comments made are reserved in private, face to face with the parties involved, not for a "show" of power.

The people who got involved thought they were doing the "couple" a favor by putting the Black woman in check -- which means -- she was told to act crazy. It seems convincing, because the public who got involved actually allowed the mental breakdown of WOMEN!

Flat out - a woman does not attack another woman who is dating.

Shame on you "What Would You Do". Based on your show, ignoramuses abound will have grounds to hurt Black women more due to your casting - especially since you did not do the opposite: A white man taking his Black girlfriend to a shop and a white woman having a problem with it.

Haven't we had enough in woman bashing in the media?

Friday, November 15, 2013

EPISODE ALERT: "12 Years A Slave" Spoiler-Free Movie Review & Crazy Black Women

Just got back from the movie "12 Years A Slave" director by Steve McQueen, staring Chiwetel Ejoifor as the lead character named "Solomon Northrup".

The plot of this movie is partly based on a true story about "Solomon Northrup" who was duped, trapped and sold back into slavery in Mississppi to two plantations for 12 years. Later he wrote about his experiences and the writings still stand today.

In the movie, it goes through various images of what "freedom" looks like and what enslavement looks like, and manumission looks like. The main character encounters other slaves who often say they have accepted their lot in life, as if they deserve the inhumane treatment because God has turned His back on them.

There were big name, A-list actors in this movie: Chiwetel Ejoifor, Michael Fassbender, Benedict Cumberbatch, Brad Pitt, Lupita Nyang'O, Alfre Woodard, Sarah Paulson, Paul Dano, Paul Giamatti. An excellent cast.

The starkness of outlook was apparent with the cinematography. The only colorful displays were shown when strength returned to individuals. Or when mirth occurs in the plot.

In mental illness, a traumatic experience can cause one's brain to adapt to survive. When that trauma does not cease, the anger of suffering turns in on itself to a clinical depression. This clinical depression could not be acted upon by slaves until the last dying breath. The inhumane and demeaning nature of enslavement, by its very nature is mental anguish and there a paucity of modern health studies to understand its impact on African Americans, and the resiliency of their ancestors in the United States.

There were two women who dealt with their trauma in the only way they could and were forced to deny their pain because it was a nuisance to others. Not just the slave masters and their families, but others slaves. The callus nature that slaves developed was out of fear. A hollow look. This movie captured like a time machine of the faces of slaves just enduring it, like the mosses on the trees in Mississippi.

But what makes this movie bring to light that it is okay to be mentally ill as a slave and afterward, is treatment options were suicide or homicide. Death lead to freedom when people believed they had none.

It explains why many persons of African descent still hold onto a faith  from a god not theirs. All that is left is the vaporous body that courses the blood to innervate the muscles to move. That is not freedom. That is barely survival. Whatever it is, it is crazy. No sane person could logically aspire to endure that and yet they did.

This movie captured it.

Some of the terms were colloquial and great use of the "N-word" in a period piece. Images to demean women using sexual prowess and rape. The viciousness of the Southern white woman who was the mistress of the house having to hold it together when they could not. Many typical things.

But in this movie, it showed life as it once was and how it all can be taken away, like the biblical "Benjamin".

To survive enslavement, Black women had to go crazy. In this movie Black women were beaten and humiliated equally to Black men during slavery. While this movie was about a man, it showed it was more about the women and how the brutality of enslavement essentially emasculated the males, and dehumanized the women - it left Black women as hollow shells of their former selves -- as voids -- waiting to be filled. Unfortunately, the filling was with more cruelty and seeking righteousness either get one killed, wanton to be killed, and sacrificing her body sexually.

In my opinion, Black Women were not blamed as a theme of this movie. It did show of Black men were ripped to shreds unable to act on anything to help Black Women. But this movie was not about physical or mental weaknesses. It was about mental instability and forcing oneself to be unstable in order to survive.

Did I like this movie. No. But I feel drawn to it. I cried in this movie in two parts. The one part where I cried had something to do with a fan fiction Iwrote with many similarities to the scene, and my writing group partners told me it was too violent. I didn't think what I wrote was violent, I felt it was truth. Those things did happen. But the issue is, one has to be crazy to accept a watered down, pansy version for white people to accept it and not be hurt by the facts...

The second part I cried in this movie was after a traumatic experience, the victim feels sorry for the actions that have happened to them. A similarity would be "Stockholm Syndrome". This individual would even defend the abuser justifying his or her torture as correct. This behavior is often seen in rape victims - the if I had not been wearing... When it is the rapist who has a power and control issue to dominate over a perceived victim, who is always powerless. Sadly, when it is done to children, the understanding of right from wrong is skewed.

Trauma such as these can affect the sexual organs, therefore these behaviors can be inherited and passed down the generations. As such, after 150 years the abolition of slavery and ~50 years of ending Jim Crow, it seems too much to expect that being mentally stable in a supremacist society this country was built upon would just dissipate in Black women, and Black men.

What "Solomon Northrup" would be called is "drapetomania". For any slave NOT to desire freedom and stay with brutality requires a certain level of craziness to occur and this movie captures it.

The question is, will this movie gain Oscar nods? It will get nominated. I want it to win. But I am not sure it will because, White America refuses this movie, and then Black America does, too but for different reasons. White America refuses it because there is no way it was that bad to slaves... It's not "Gone With The Wind" in the antebellum South. Black America does not like it due to "Slavery Movie Fatigue" and seeing what we already know, that racist White people are the worst.

Friday, November 8, 2013

UCLA Black Men Speak Out

In this spoken word, Sy Stokes discusses how he is not proud to be called a Bruin.  It's really well done and states a statistic that UCLA won more championship games (143) than what the Black male freshman population (~43).

Here is my issue about how they feel. I'm tired of hearing the laments. In 1996 when most of California voted to destroy opportunities for diversity driven by the psychotic ramblings of an ignorant buffoon of a Black Man to bamboozled the University of California system. Now the only blacks left to make differences to our communities are athletes who are trying to leave the 'hood. 

But the fact is, UCLA does not care about diversity and that will never change.

EPISODE ALERT: FDA Bans Crisco Trans-Fats & Why They Don't Give A Sh*t

It's been awhile since I've written anything. My blog is about mental health, but it is also about maintaining a healthy lifestyle, too. Because without it, achieving a mentally healthy outlook is very, very difficult.

Recently, the FDA announced it is banning trans-fats. What that means is any fat that is solid at room-temperature, like Crisco vegetable oil or partially hydrogenated vegetable oil which is from soybean oil, will no longer be in many processed foods we consume - chiefly, crackers, cookies and microwave popcorn. There are many others. It use to be that companies could make foods with less than 0.5 grams of trans-fat and could put on the food label as "no trans-fat". Now that is not allowed.

Here is the NPR radio show about this topic.

My mother asked me what I thought about the new rulings. I said, I don't really care. As a vegetarian and someone that actually does cook from scratch, the requirement for trans-fats would be minimal. I must say, I own Crisco products, they are very nice to bake with, but the way I make my foodstuffs, it does not taste as good as butter.

I tried explaining to my mother about how products made with trans-fats allowed them to have increased shelf-lives. That was good when food was scarce and many people starved. When foods could not be "kept" in refrigerators or were not abundant in markets like they are now in the US. Partially hydrogenated oil is what kept many people alive long enough to eat food.

However, from a molecular biological perspective, a starvation metabolism is still different from an metabolic syndrome metabolism. In times of food scarcity, the body latches on to any of the major macromolecules it can find as well as water. Any foodstuffs is better than no foodstuffs or prolonged lack of nutrition. Proteins play a major role in saving lives. What is fed to starving children is a product called "Plumpy'nut"

It is for severe malnutrition. It contains monounsaturated fats. It has a 2 year shelf-life and requires no food preparation.

It is made by a French company and it heals thousands of starving children in undeveloped countries and malnourished areas, as well as keeping them alive.

It is, the life-saver of children. Without some "trans-fat", these children would die.

A metabolic syndrome metabolism is about overeating all the major macromolecules to where key disease genes are unable to be regulated. Many of the diseases we love fall into this category: Obesity, Diabetes, Heart Disease and Stroke. The way to change metabolic syndrome is through physical fitness, eating fresh vegetables only, very little protein, no starch or carbohydrates and reducing stress through mindfulness meditation. Doing all these activities are very hard to do, many medications can help, but there are side effect. This is a first world problem.

Making our foodstuffs more natural would be nice. Who has the time? Not all natural foods are safe due to infections and chemical contamination. Having a natural lifestyle takes a lot of dedication, time, and motivation. When someone is suffering from mental illness, those thought processes are not even apparent.

After I told my mother all that, she said, "I don't want government telling me what I can and cannot eat..."

Actually, that got me to thinking. The reality is, the FDA takes trans-fats off the table in food who are the producers going to sell their products to? Well...

My logic is the reason why the "trans-fat" food companies are not making a huge stink about the FDA ruling against it is, they are transitioning into the BIOFUEL market where that tub of Crisco once cost $2 - $3 now cost $20 - $30 dollars a pound to drive your vehicle. Crisco does not care. It isn't hard for the oil companies like Shell to speak to JM Smuckers about anything... And if you did not think they would do that, well... I have some nice beachfront property in Yuma, Arizona...

I'm going to buy all the little tubs of Crisco that I can and sell it...

Monday, July 29, 2013


Saw this image on a Facebook friend's profile:

Age of Information Page

It got me thinking on the cavalier attitude sensed by this generation and younger who have never seen overt legally sanctioned white supremacist signs like these:

 (Segregation Now, Segregation Forever by Wallace)

The entire civil rights movement and voting rights has now been wiped off the American Planet by the US Supreme Court that will return to a caste-system society in the "democracy and free world". There is a reason for that which is mainly economic, but it is not justice.

With the Zimmerman Trial verdicts, I remain quite other than to show my displeasure on this blog. I am vocal on Facebook which friendships have ended due to mentalities I do not want to manage or negotiate at this time. Some even close friends that I have know since childhood who call me angry because they are ignorant of how Facebook operates.

At any rate, I have posted a series of thoughtful enterprises for all to discuss based on these images.
Simplifying a complex issue like what is racism & what's not will never improve relations. Especially standing from a point of privilege and the oppress only wears a hoodie with candy and ice tea. No. I don't want to work it out from that vantage point anymore.

Respect between men stops racism. Honor between men overcomes it...

Respect is not honored here anymore. Incorrigible babies demand respect that only men can earn by hard work...I'm not just talking about physical labor.

I just saw a very powerful movie where an underling grabbed a superior officer without being beaten down for it. Respect lacks in our cultural displays.

Old farts, biddies, curmudgeons, cantankerous, and old fools -- the disrespect of our older generation is standard -- such as "I can't get no respect". Thing is, when we gave up our intelligence rights, in the 80's and pursued greed instead, the dismantling of our respect foundations occurred. These actions are not new. These actions represent history repeating itself.

Here's a kicker: How can we ask for respect when we don't respect ourselves? Much less honor ourselves? Love ourselves? Here's another: Why are we asking for respect?

Respect is commanded.

Some say earned. No. Who wants respect not honored?
Respect must be given freely. Children lack the discernment required to make that distinction. The life experience. Diverse communication requires to stimulate the intellectual wisdom is beyond appearances. 

Respect requires trust. It invokes a bond between men -- a spiritual connection that asks us to step out of our comfort zones and to touch humanity. Respect within trust asks us to be courageous. Introspective of ourselves. Evaluate of our stewardship, and examines our life faiths as humans.

Fear is a mindkiller... Fear activates our anger in the "fight or flight response". Fear immobilizes us. Unfettered fear is something the stupid create delusions and fantasize about to leverage power and control. Respect is never attained through fear. Respect is lost when fear bolsters irrational responses by the ignorant.

What's interesting top apex predators respect one another until another invading species takes over. Rebalancing the ecosystem is difficult, because everyone will die. Of course only humans interpret fear. Animals are instinctual about it. For the most part.

We must process our fears to overcome them so that we can at least respect one another.

Monday, July 15, 2013

EPISODE ALERT: Collapse Zimmerman Trial from a Disney FanGirl POV

Remember, rest is different from collapse. Collapse is rest that has been pushed past its limit.
 Exhaustion come from trying to control the uncontrollable.

The recent verdicts regarding the acquittal of George Zimmerman for killing Trayvon Martin cause us in the community service fields and mental health arenas to shudder in pain.

How does one prepare for the mindquakes of others feeling so disenfranchised and lost by a system that hurts and oppresses us?

Not only that, but our crime is being born Black and then Female and our women's rights are being ripped away from us to pursue our happiness in this land of the free and home of the brave. What rights?

And it feels Caucasian insecure bigoted men are making choices for people they can no longer have control.
I am just waiting for the 2 meter wide exhaust port for my Rebel Starship to fly down in a trench run and do the following:

Alas, I am not Princess Leia who appears to keep her resolve when speaking to Grand Moff Tarkin snidely:

The tighter the controls they make on us, the kindling of revolt and rebellion will occur in this country. Will it be violent? I know for the other side, the opposing side, the losing side, it will be. Violence is their operative. Violence is their means. It's about power and control, and the fact they are wielding it, says they are insecure about it. Archaic, outdated, not updated, old, crotchety, asinine and balding people. People who do not wish to embrace a future. People who want the past in their security blankets. People who have past their expiration dates and cannot increase their memory chips of expanded ideas. They're hard limits have brakes on them. Yet, they are the same ones that want the stuff you will try to take from them.

"If you don't want it... Give it back..." ~Tia Dalma - Pirates of the Carribean: Dead Man's Chest

 We have to be more resolute and determine mechanisms to force our minds to wrap around the dysfunction, especially online and social media. Flame Race Wars are going nowhere. We are being torn down by idleness of the distractions beset by social media at this time. The touch psychology is not positive and we are not communicating with one another in an uplifting way.

The mere people exacting this process are the ones who suffer the greatest from this issue. We are allowing touch technology, known that we build a trusting connection and relationship with it psychology to replace our neuropsychiatric biobehavior mechanism to be routed out and disconnected.

What should we do? Logoff.

I already know I can't do it unless I have this...

Your Isle Sanctuary make be different than mine. But you must make a place for yourself, somewhere online to regain your compassion and peace. Other senses can outcompete touch. Like music. But only the right kind. If your music is leaving you more frazzled then it is not the right kind.

Another is conversation - dedicated and intentional conversation. Not distracted. You have to DEVOTE yourself to LISTENING COMPASSIONATELY to especially those around you. If they love to speak to you and you keep blocking them, they will ultimately leave you and regaining that relationship back is what can cause EXHAUSTION!

You can see by the arguments people have against ideas and verdicts that PEOPLE ARE NOT LISTENING ANYMORE!

I feel frustrated when I am not heard. But there is a process to make your concerns known and allow the other individual to desire the right thing by communicating your wants. Your wants must be clear and concise, in a goal for others to follow and a vision everyone can rally.

And that is what a NO social media computer code can program... That is experiential training.

Friday, July 5, 2013

Being A Woman Now in 2013

Women are losing their rights and ground in 10 states:

  • North Dakota
  • South Dakota
  • Kansas
  • Arkansas
  • Virginia
  • Ohio
  • Mississippi
  • Oklahoma
  • North Carolina
And now, Wisconsin has decided a new ruling for Ultrasound on women who want abortions.

These ultrasounds are to deter them from abortions and continue on with their pregnancy and births. After their births, no one cares. No one gives a shit.

DISCLOSURE: I have NEVER been pregnant. I have NEVER had an abortion. I would not know what this process is like and now, I am TOO OLD to conceive without exorbitant expensive aid - which I can't afford, anyway. 

Women who have the inkling to abortion as a choice rarely do not take it lightly. And if it is true, it is BLACK WOMEN who have the highest use of abortion and the sheer number of AFRICAN AMERICAN BABIES BORN merits the fact that abortion does nothing to the population.

And all young people are into having sex. How are African American young women just getting pregnant when their counterparts are not? Is it LACK of contraceptives? No use of condoms? I don't think so. I think that this is an issue of, "TAKES TWO TO TANGO"!

Look at our culture. There will always be girls who put out. Clothing is skimpy. Provocative at a very young age and these boys are taught that "rape culture" is okay - smashing a woman's head into the mud and pounding her into all orifices. Moreover, this is all visible on the internet and the parents do not even know this kind of thing is happening.

Also there a lot of perverts and pedophiles that prey on children doing things they normally would not do. I don't know why I get show offended and hurt when young people curse at me and tell me go to hell when I tell them to slow their provocation and behavior. Sadly, we find later these kids strung out hurting other kids.

These real women HAVE sex and GET pregnant by males who never had an intention to care for her and sells her a bunch of goods he can't quite possibly deliver. If the women doesn't yield to his desires, he'll find some new chick that would. That new chick who has zero self-esteem is the one that gets pregnant. AND THAT IS NOT IF HE TAKES IT BY FORCE!

Males put down women and they learn from other men or outside influences that it is okay to demean women. A bettering of sorts. The use of "Bitch" and Cunt" profanity is the usual.

A woman that has not grown up defending herself against that falls prey to it. 

When she gets OLD she is not made saintly, and she is cast aside. Stuffed with the grandkids because it's only what she is good for.

IF she is lucky, she has an education, and can make do to do great things. To stop and break this cycle. 

Protesting works. Voting in new forward thinking legislators, works too. But both processes take time, that we do not have. This spiritual depravity we've suffered under is what is hurting us, women.

We don't want to kill our fetuses. I would not want to make the choice of abortion. But if I ever got pregnant, my odds are for a baby with a huge birth defect. I can pray to God to not let that happen to me, but it is highly probable it will. A baby without a skull... 

To the "PRO LIFE" - whatever proponents: Can you deal with that? No. So if you're not going to put me back in time with a man that loves me like my husband who I did not meet until I was 33 years old - the only man I want a child with ever on this planet, if you can stop me from suffering from HPV and HSV, or other female issue and then not having a fibroid. Since you cannot send me back in time to stop this, then I think you have ZERO jurisdiction to my decisions that deal with my uterus.

Let's see you deal with rape.

Let's see you deal with an asshole who LIES to you.


Because a man put his penis in woman's vagina and ejaculates his semen into her uterus, does not connote making LOVE. What kind of child is wrought into this world you are trying to conjure into it? 

Saturday, June 29, 2013


Photograph by Jacob Langston-Pool/Getty
Rachel Jeantel was the prosecution's star witness for the George Zimmerman's murder trial of Trayvon Martin. She is a young 19 year old woman going into her senior year of high school in Sanford, Florida.

She testified on Thursday, June 27th and was labeled by social media and by the professional media as Black, Dark Skinned, Belligerent, Ignorant, Ghetto, Stupid, Ugly -- almost every moniker that can debase an human being possible.

The following day, Friday, June 28th, her entire demeanor changed. Social media and professional media felt she was coached, though she said she got some rest. True or not, in my opinion THERE WAS BLATANT STEREOTYPING AND BIGOTRY THAT THIS YOUNG LADY WAS DEALT WITH THAT SHE SHOULD HAVE NOT SUFFERED HAD THE PROSECUTION PLACED HER IN A PROTECTED CLASS!!!

I say they should have declared her to have a disability. A disability is defined by the American with Disabilities Act that is not limited to just physical but also mental by the DSM-VI as incorporated in 2009.

I got cursed out for this. Because further labeling her as "disabled" = "STUPID" by some Black people and White people. There is a stigma associated with the word "disability". BUT IT IS IRRESPONSIBLE AND MALPRACTICE WHEN FORCING ANYONE TO ANSWER A QUESTION THEY DO NOT UNDERSTAND FULLY AFTER IT HAS BEEN DECLARED THAT THEY HAVE A KNOWN DISABILITY!!!


It is the only explanation that can explain her reasoning for not wanting to be there. SHE WAS AFRAID THAT SHE MIGHT LOOK STUPID! And what those bastards did to her, WAS WRONG! Not even a dog is treated the way she was treated... They could have done something to protect her. Which means, someone FAILED HER ON THE FIRST DAY!

On the second day, that got partially rectified. But still YELLING AT HER AND FORCING HER TO READ SOMETHING SHE CANNOT READ (the police officer's report written in cursive handwriting) - SORRY! That just goes to show you KOCH BROTHER'S WHO PAY FOR ZIMMERMAN'S LAWYERS ARE RACIST SHITHEADS!

The jury of Zimmerman's peers, all female, on person of color, probably were put off by Miss Jeantel's demeanor on the first day. But the second day, the "CNN analysts" stated the jurors were more interested and taking notes and trying to grasp the point.

Information is available at our fingertips. Even if sequestered, the jury can view the public opinion in some forms.

Miss Jeantel was a teen that cared for nothing about real-life until Trayvon Martin got killed. So she said things young people say on social media. Exchange all kinds of text messages. That is what young people do and her family probably did not monitor her communications. It is not something that happens in some households.

This is how life is for a lot of people, and when you do not have a CLUE that it existed in AMERICA means you are socially and consciously illiterate.

The main attorney for the Defense is Don West. He is lost because he cannot relate to something he has never seen. Watch Koch Brother's bring in some "kneegrow" lawyer to help out for cultural competency... I say don't do it, because you know what, RACIST AMERICA needs to see the segregation they espouse when they cut education, when they cut foodstamps programs, when they decided not to fund early childhood development. They need to see what poverty will become when they hurt the least of us.

"The King will reply, 'Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.'"                                                                 Matthew 25:40

These are my personal opinions. Some mixed with my professional knowledge.

Dr. G-

Thursday, April 18, 2013

Cyberbullying Among Adult Women in 2010

Cyberbullying growing among adult women

by MIMI JUNG / KING 5 News
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Posted on May 6, 2010 at 11:00 PM
Updated Thursday, May 6 at 11:05 PM
There's been a lot of news about teenage cyberbullies, but it's not just for teens. Experts say it's also growing among adult women - and it too can turn vicious.
Whether it's a chat room or social network, Gina Moore-Sanders practically lives online.
"I get to meet a lot of different people with diverse opinions and I like to have conversations with them," she said.
Recently, Moore-Sanders posted a creative story on an Internet bulletin board. Soon, cyberbullies began taking shots, from snide comments to personal attacks.
"They said expletives, profanity that I was stupid and I was crazy," said Moore-Sanders.
Experts say anytime you are harassed, humiliated or threatened online it's cyberbullying, and teens aren't the only victims. 
"I hear about adult women retaliating a lot more and retaliating in really vicious ways, to the point where sites get shut down, people drop off of sites," said Dr. Cheryl Dellasega, author of Mean Girls Grown Up.
She says bullying can be one rude comment, or a string of them.
"The topics that women are cyberbullied about are really endless. It could be a romance. It could be your parenting practices," said Dellasega.
It can even be about physical appearance or family.  Romi Lassally, an anonymous online confession booth for women. While she sees plenty of positive chit-chat, she also sees the negative.
"We probably see cyberbullying maybe 1 in 10 confessions, maybe 2 in 10 comments. We don't want to post it. We want to offer a judgment free, safe place for women," said Lassally.
So Lassally has the site moderated. She believes part of the reason women bear their claws is insecurity.
"I think the platform invites conversation, but it also invites different opinions," said Lassally. "And if one woman's doing it one way, that just might seem wrong to someone else."
Dellasega says sometimes mean girls grow into mean women, especially when the there's anonymity.
"It's like being behind a mask," said Dellasega. "It offers that sort of anonymous screen for a woman to say some things that she wouldn't normally say."
Moore-Sanders says, even as an adult, the words cut just as deep.
"It made me feel offended and it hurt--a lot," she said.
So, how does one fight back?
"They want you to fire back. The best thing to do is to turn off the computer and walk away," said Dellasega.
And if you want to respond, stop and think before you hit send. That's what Moore-Sanders does when words turn nasty.
"That's when I decide to just not have a discussion anymore," said Gina.
If you know who is bullying you, Dellasega suggests meeting them in person to work things out. That way, you can clarify what was said online and there are no misunderstandings.
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Monday, March 18, 2013

The Ari | af | ya Universe: Dr. Gina Moore's Social Media Resume

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Monday, March 11, 2013


The 9-11 dispatcher's last comment made to her before she was killed by her ex-husband:

All I can do is try to help you ma'am. It's up to you. You care going to have to. It will be up to you to actually try to do the things that we suggest to you. But if you don't do that than you know police hands are tied.

Basically, what Dallas said is "fuck a Black woman"...

No one gave a shit about "Deanna Cook". She was not smart, she must have been all "this kinna woman" -- i.e. ghetto hoochie mama  to be married to a psycho. And she whined to 9-11 to solve her problems. YUP! //END SARCASM!

All I want to do is destroy the entire lives of everyone involved with this woman seeking help because now she is dead.

The ex-Husband - gone.

The 9-11 dispatchers associated sued or imprisoned.

The police who left a dead body - expelled.


And I ought not to be shocked.

What if it were me though?

Friday, March 8, 2013

WOMEN'S DAY: Oddly enough... Despite everything... I found what makes me happy

If you follow this blog and you have read about me, I have a PhD in molecular genetics. I have done research on genetically modified mice to understand the genetics of cholesterol, heart disease, diabetes and aging. I have published papers on that research. My last research article was published in 2008.

Then due to a lot of things, one causing a disability of the work, I had to leave research. I love science. I love the pursuit of finding the answer. I love a puzzle and then building a story around it. When I am blocked, I am immobilized. This is not what happened. What happened is 1) I may have a seizure disorder that makes me sick, and when stressed it is worse; and 2) I was forced to do something unethical or I would lose my job. I did it and I wound up being laid off anyway. I decided not to pursue action because I was tired of the University of Washington Medical School politics.

But don't get me started.

Anyhow, I said to myself, that if I EVER get the chance to join a trend at its infancy, I was going to pounce on it as enjoy myself.

Well, I have...

I found Facebook, Twitter, and Google+. I can do some minor coding, nothing extensive. But my content management is awesome. I can say some wild stuff. I get into "debates" and sometimes all out arguments on all kinds of things.

I don't hunt down individuals because that is called "cyberbullying" despite what my haters would say. Oh yes, according to them, I am one. I could see, if I posted, everyday with all my friends to purposely bash them and make them feel humiliated and idiotic everyday, but that is actually a waste of my time. Why take down a troll when blocking or banning them is so easy?

Moreover, there are rules that one can develop when "your own page" or "your turf" is being attacked on social media... (Irony: it's the social media proprietor's turf anyway).

  • You can have a "3 strikes and you are out" rule - troll 3 times = ban/block
  • You can talk to them to see how the issue can be resolved = that doesn't work with the unmedicated psychos.
  • You can ignore it, but on social media it festers fast, so the amount of ignoring will be hard.
  • You can impose a "One strike" rule - Say something incendiary, i.e. racist slur, etc; or personal information and you go full throttle with ban, report, delete... If on Twitter, no recourse but to ban. If a blog is written, first ask for removal, then if refused, go higher up...if it means law enforcement, it means that.

Social media is about exchanging ideas and sometimes there will be disagreements. These "debates" can get heated like and Bill O'Reilly freakout. Point is, once it goes personal and there are disparaging remarks that are overall defamation of your character, then it is no longer a debate. It has now become a slug fest.

Believe it or not, this happens to women all the time on social media, such as the case of Anita Sarkeesian and her feminist studies on how women are portrayed in videogames. So when you state a strong belief or idea, and it encounters a barrage of attacks that are personal or group blocking you based on lies, know this is the standard right now on how women who use social media are treated.

Supermodels are treated similarly. Case after case. "Men" are violently bashing women, all over the world.

With the vary nature of "violence" against women changing due to technology, i.e. deranged men (opposed to normal men like my husband)  have advanced the use of technology to keep tabs on the objects of their obsession -- i.e. women to find ways to take power and control over them. If that means using the scare tactics of "drone strikes in their beds" - they will do that.

From an Afrikan Centered point of view - which is the path of the Ariafya - waning age of supremacy is causing some White males to literally become psychotic with narcissistic borderline personality disorder. Psychosis usually causes violence acts, somewhat animalistic without warning.  The placating or soothing the savage beast by the sexualized women has ended. Many Caucasian women have started to find their voice and scream, "NO!". While many women of color, stand by the sidelines counting the dead bodies of men of color at the hands of their men...

That does not mean violence is condoned. It just means the origins of how this kind of destruction is happening. Unfortunately, it will continues. Moreover, some men of color will take up the assault guns and assault women, first women of color with impunity, and then Caucasian women hoping their lynchings will not hurt.

In the end, life will go on. Women will rule this world, like it or not. The way to do it is, keep at the social media and keep saying what needs to be said.

Women can disagree on progress, but what we will all agree up on is revolutionizing the systems that have been built.


Monday, March 4, 2013

Moving on for Happiness Sake. How to do?

Miriam Makeba - Mama Africa - 81st Birthday

One of the HARDEST things for me to do is "MOVE ON". I use to think of it as quitting or being a quitter. I use to see it as giving up on people who relied on me. I use to rate my success on others happiness. That my own internal happiness with myself was not worth that much, so if I make others happy as a form of community service for the rent we pay on Earth, then perhaps people will see me as a good person and like me. Afterall, making others happy, will make yourself happy... Right?

When you have a mental health condition like depression, where being happy with oneself is important, there is something wrong with the very interior foundation of brain activity in that depressed person. Not forcing community service speeches on them. ONLY TALK THERAPY works, which takes time, where the results are not instant, to get to the level that it is OKAY to have some happiness for yourself. That you are NOT being GREEDY that you have to do "self-care" in order to be your best person.

Just like fitness and eating healthy helps with dealing with personal happiness, so is the TALK THERAPY by a professionally licensed trained provider OR a mental health peer support specialist (which I am) seems to help. Of course this does include action planning. What is the "short term" goals and how will you get there? What is your confidence from a scale of 1-10, 10 being the highest?  So on and so forth. With a licensed provider, you will get the "glitch pathology" work  through -- that is what they go to school for and get the licenses for. With a coach or a peer support specialist, you will just get the worksheet and maybe a few suggestions.

ULTIMATELY - it's your health and you have to work through it for what is best for you by defining your goals. First thing is, context - what does happiness LOOK LIKE for you? And KNOW that it is a work of art, always needing some refinement and you might not get to the final product of how you see it. It's more about the journey -- how you're going to and getting there. You can't read this, it's your own story you are writing and you are learning on the job. There is no manual. And guess what, you have to put your own mask on for oxygen to flow before helping others...

But moving on... Where to just give it ALL UP... Several of my blogs here talk about that... After recent political events, such as the sequester:

People are upset because they feel like they're holding on by a thread and have to give up EVERYTHING in their lives because "walking away" is quitting and giving up. Think of the perspective of our veterans. They fought for this country, they get ZERO disability benefits - PROMISED TO THEM and are having several psychiatric health issues with combat flashbacks. The disability benefits would help them get the care they need, but it takes 50-eleventy years to get it -- after they've come off combat deployment with discharge? WTF??? Uh...What?

But, unfortunately, they have to MOVE ON from the mind-fuck that happened to them and do something with their lives now.

MOVING ON - what does that mean really? I ain't gonna lie... I means giving up, quitting and letting go of the bullshit. Then it means picking up whatever pieces you got left, even if it is nothing and as a survival skill, leaving and trusting that the Universe will understand.

Sometimes, it means, doing your job despite not getting paid for it. Standing for something, even if you will get arrested for it. Being mean to people who love you but are not positive influences on your life. It means, not only are you fucking over them, and you might be fucking over yourself, but in the "END GAME" it means that this fucked up situation is temporary and MOVING ON TO A DIFFERENT LIFE is a CHOICE you made for your own perpetual HAPPINESS!


I ain't gonna say it won't hurt. You will have withdrawal symptoms of what once was. Your love of your life will beg to come back in to it, but...

MOVING ON - once you make that decision you don't turn back. So it should happen in your life. 

The issue is, it is about you CHOOSING to move on versus be FORCED to move on...

Forced moving on is worse, because you can't control the day to day operations. I.e. House fell into a sinkhole, loved one got shot and killed, you had a heart attack, etc.

Life is unpredictable.

But you can trust yourself to make the best decisions in your life to attain your happiness for yourself. And if all the bad forced moves happen anyway, then at least you were doing what made you happy...

What if what makes you happy is doing meth?

That's another blog... 

Moving on looks like this:

Wednesday, February 27, 2013


The origins started at least by 2002. Then iterations traveled across the web and are on youtube. I already know no one reads, by no one reading my blog. I get no comments or questions. Only spammers respond trying to sell me a diet pill. My like numbers are low because I'm not an active blogger on this site. On another site, I am. So at any rate, this statements below are now "urban legend" to motivate us to do more.

The following letter was read on a local radio hip hop/ r&b radio station. It is a letter supposedly from a white person that has been in circulation. Check it out. Some of the people that called to the show actually agreed with it (even though they were blacks). Is there some truth to this, or is it better to dismiss it. It certainly has got me thinking.


THEY ARE STILL OUR SLAVES We can continue to reap profits from the Blacks without the effort of physical slavery. Look at the current methods of containment that they use on themselves: IGNORANCE, GREED, and SELFISHNESS.

Their IGNORANCE is the primary weapon of containment. A great man once said, "The best way to hide something from Black people is to put it in a book." We live now in the Information Age. They have gained the opportunity to read any book on any subject through the efforts of their fight for freedom, yet they refuse to read. There are numerous books readily available at Borders, Barnes & Noble, and, not to mention their own Black Bookstores that provide solid blueprints to reach economic equality (which should have been their fight all along), but few read consistently, if at all. 

GREED is another powerful weapon of containment. Blacks, since the abolition of slavery, have had large amounts of money at their disposal. Last year they spent 10 billion dollars during Christmas, out of their 450 billion dollars in total yearly income (2.22%). Any of us can use them as our target market, for any business venture we care to dream up, no matter how outlandish, they will buy into it. Being primarily a consumer people, they function totally by greed. They continually want more, with little thought for saving or investing. They would rather buy some new sneaker than invest in starting a business. 

Some even neglect their children to have the latest Tommy or FUBU. And they still think that having a Mercedes, and a big house gives the "Status" or that they have achieved the American Dream. They are fools! The vast majority of their people are still in poverty because their greed holds them back from collectively making better communities. With the help of BET, and the rest of their Black media that often broadcasts destructive images into their own homes, we will continue to see huge profits like those of Tommy and Nike. (Tommy Hilfiger has even jeered them, saying he doesn't want their money, and look at how the fools spend more with him than ever before!). They'll continue to show off to each other while we build solid communities with the profits from our businesses that we market to them. 

SELFISHNESS, ingrained in their minds through slavery, is one of the major ways we can continue to contain them. One of their own, W. E. B. Dubois said that there was an innate division in their culture. A "Talented Tenth" he called it. He was correct in his deduction that there are segments of their culture that has achieved some "form" of success. However, that segment missed the fullness of his work. They didn't read that the "Talented Tenth" was then responsible to aid the Non-Talented Ninety Percent in achieving a better life. Instead, that segment has created another class, a Buppie class that looks down on their people or aids them in a condescending manner. They will never achieve what we have. Their selfishness does not allow them to be able to work together on any project or endeavor of substance. When they do get together, their selfishness lets their egos get in the way of the goal. Their so-called help organizations seem to only want to promote their name without making any real change in their community. They are content to sit in conferences and conventions in our hotels, and talk about what they will do, while they award plaques to the best speakers, not the best doers. Is there no end to their selfishness? 

They steadfastly refuse to see that "TOGETHER EACH ACHIEVES MORE (TEAM)!" They do not understand that they are no better than each other because of what they own. In fact, most of those Buppies are but one or two paychecks away from poverty. All of which is under the control of our pens in our offices and our boardrooms. 

Yes, we will continue to contain them as long as they refuse to read, continue to buy anything they want, and keep thinking they are "helping" their communities by paying dues to organizations which do little other than hold lavish conventions in our hotels. By the way, don't worry about any of them reading this letter, remember, 'THEY DON'T READ!!!!

(Prove them wrong. Please pass this on!)

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Guns and Mental Health

No this is not about Adam Lanza, Holmes or Loughner. This blog is about me, someone with a manic-depressive illness diagnosis. I am considered mentally ill, and I know how to shoot a gun.

I have shot a 22 and a Glock. I shot a small rifle and my dad wanted me to shoot his Winchester Rifle, but the kickback is too strong.

At any rate, I went shooting with my husband and brother-in-law who is a former police officer. I realized my eyes could not focus on a bright orange target from 10 feet away. Realizing after that, I visited my physician and he flatly asked me if I wanted glasses to see, and my eyes had 20/20 vision. But he sent me to a specialist that did find anything wrong except my optic nerve. So then I visited the neurologist who examined me after my MRI - two of them in fact - and said my optic nerve had a "kink" in it, and there was nothing I could do about it.

But the powerful use of guns is not a way to solve any issues. At least I know as a "mentally ill" person, that guns can only protect so much.

For mass shootings, bashing mentally ill will not stop this problem. Watching out for "lone wolves" is not going to work, and restricting guns will fail, too.

What stops shootings at schools are physical barriers with a well defined parameter. But do we want any "barriers" at schools?

I think perhaps having technology and innovation to help us, might prove beneficial.

Why aren't assault rifles "chipped"? Everything else has an RFID, why aren't all assault rifles have smart technology that controls the ability to fire it within city limits difficult without proper permits?

The comedian, Chris Rock, asked why can't the gun permits to be just as difficult as a mortgage in escrow? I do not think criminals care about permits.

But we have chips on everything we do, like our smartphones that you might even be using to read this...

The guns won't work in the city and once you go out hunt feral animals, well... Isn't that what we use assault rifles in the country for?

And then why are we continually forcing our children to go to a brick and mortar type school when they are learning on the computer anyway? WTH? We can put a computer and upgrade them for the lives of our children. The social interactivity can occur by experiential learning and independent study plan.

But I'm mentally ill, who would listen to me.