Sunday, September 14, 2014

WHAT'S WRONG WITH THIS PICTURE: White cops killing Black children AND WHY I HATE SEATTLE

Lead image for the article
This Seattle Times article is misleading. 

The title is:

Race and police: Four Seattle-area families share concerns post-Ferguson

The shooting of an unarmed black teen by a police officer in Ferguson, Mo., highlights the concerns of parents of African-American and mixed-race youths. Four area families speak with The Seattle Times about their concerns.

Seattle Times staff reporter

When you read the article as an informed and intelligent Seattleite, your thinking easily would lead you, to believe, "are the police in my area aggressive toward Black children"?
Based on many discussions on Facebook and Black Twitter, this article would be read with great enthusiasm.
"Keep your hands in view. Don’t make any sudden moves. Don’t reach into your pockets, or for the glove compartment. Even if you’re in the right, save that argument for another day — to ensure that another day will come."

However, the families interviews are NO REPRESENTATION OF WHAT HAPPENED IN FERGUSON, MO. It's as if, Seattle Times got their news from the Fox News Channel with Don Lemon and just used that as their background research.

Sure, there are anecdotal stories glossed over about the microaggressions encountered in Seattle. Based on these family's interviews they have encountered microaggressions from bigots, or own people and colorism, and ignorant people.  However, in a White Supremacist system, one never knows who will say and do bigoted stuff and this article missed that fact or just did not care, which makes the article a microaggression.

And the imagery used for this entire article shows exactly why I HATE SEATTLE!

I can't move, I can't live anywhere else without my husband. My husband is doing well here. I have no friends, no life, and huge worries about fools harassing me due to microagressions, like the oxygen thief that pushed me out of the movie line when I was deciding a movie this year...

This article does not speak to what is going on and the consensus of thought behind what happened in Ferguson. What this article does is paint a false picture of our rosiness in Seattle.

1) The multiethic, one black parent theme displayed with biracial children automatically suggests privilege. These people don't live in a racially charged environment, like Ferguson that made it's money off of tickets and fines on Black people who they caught, which suggests a targeting. And individuals who were targeted were ALWAYS on the radar, which suggests an overpolicing much like that in New York with Eric Garner. That does not happen here in Seattle, people from other cities come from over-policing situations and it's like they have PTSD as it relates to cops. I do. When I was a part of forming the Seattle Urban League Young Professionals in 2005, at an event, a young black woman got into an argument over bowling shoes. No one came to her aid. Then she called the police. I questioned what kind of event was SULYP running and I was ostracized. I don't want to be around people who think that it is okay to come to someone's business and act crazy? I was there to have a good time. Apparently, I was the only one. But at that time, no one in this "professional group" understood that escalation of a situation involving people is not a smart thing for African Americans that are in small numbers in Seattle to start off with. Don't get me started of what looks like a "crabs in a barrel mentality" in this city, which makes no sense because there isn't just one of 2 of us and I thought we need to both make it. I was wrong. Another reason why I HATE SEATTLE.

2) If anyone can suffer reading this trash article and gain an understanding of what the interviewees think, you will find that it's superficial. Not the reality of tear gas canisters landing on your front lawn and people being told to go home, when that is your home...

3) Where are the police in this discussion? Were there any? Um... No... The problems in Ferguson are due to piss poor law enforcement training and negative racial undertones. Anyone who has worked in social justice can see that. But the fact is, Seattle Times didn't even speak to the family of the John T. Williams, the Native American woodcarver shot dead by Seattle PD. That is the best example of how Ferguson and Seattle may be similar with police issues. There is also the Latino beaten down. Did the writer DO the necessary background research?



Which makes me wonder, why did Seattle Times write this BS article?

To soothe the souls of White Supremacists that own his dishrag of a news paper and inform the multiethnis/racial children that they do not pass for white enough...

There is a colorism issue in Seattle often swept under the rug. It is condoned to progress in this city if the paradigm is not fit. It's promulgated by the corporate industries that move it forward and the young people protest things that make no difference or are ineffective toward change.

That doesn't mean there are not well-meaning people, but if I refuse to fit in BS circles in this city, then guess what? I'm ostracized. People who hit hard times are ignored and as far as friendships, they are absent with this thing called the "Seattle Freeze" -- the people are polite, but not very inclusive. And it's sad to say that the one thing that could bring the people of Seattle closer might be an earth moving disaster, but given that that has happened, we are no closer to those people. "What's Oso?"

I have never had to second guess and have my words minced before than this passive aggressive place, BUT THAT IS WHY I HATE SEATTLE FOR THIS VERY REASON ALONE.

You decide.

Family stories used for a police brutality against Black children

Family stories used for a police brutality against Black children

Family stories used for a police brutality against Black children



Saturday, September 13, 2014

THERE IS A HUGE BIOLOGICAL BASIS FOR SUICIDE IDEATION!!!

Read a great series of Tweets of the sociological ramifications of suicide ideation among African Americans.

Black People and Suicide by GradientLair

I have been working on mental health and suicide ideation for MYSELF for over 30+ years of my life. Bipolar diagnosis. Yes, I have to take medication for that. I chose that option, because I did molecular genetic research in neurology to understand WTF is going on with me. I found my drugs, I spoke to the professionals about what was happen. I told them how to give me better treatment. I have a few therapists that actually taken it upon themselves to help me to where I've gotten better. Some where I had to get a new therapist. It's MY health, so how am I going to get better since I don't want the training?

But I hear causes to why Black people kill themselves like that's the biggest atrocity in the Universe and I get tired of hearing that. FUCK STIGMA!

Fact is, the STRONG DESIRE to want to kill one's self is bottomline a BIOLOGICAL ONE!

OUR BRAINS ARE ORGANS TOO, YOU DIDN'T KNOW THEY COULD GET SICK LIKE THAT?

JUST LIKE A HEART ATTACK, YOU WOULDN'T TALK ABOUT 'HOW BAD YOUR CHILDHOOD WAS" BEFORE YOU TREAT!!! TREAT!!! TREAT!!! THE HEART!

So why are you doing it to someone that wants to try to kill themselves? They are sick. They need help. Has judging them worked?

And yes, I know what its like to desire to commit suicide. I attempted starting at 14 years old until 19 years old and just said to myself I don't care what mental illness stigma does to me, I WANT TO LIVE.

If I wanted to live till I was 46 years old -- what I am today with a DOCTORATE in molecular genetics, then I needed to get professionally licensed care.

Biology doesn't change or differ in humans THAT much. Which means the standards of care can be met by whoever treats you. That's when the sociology and cultural competency comes into play -- AFTER ONE IS STABLE!

I've written and written and written and written some more about this. NO ONE READS IT!

NO ONE LIKE NAMI et al. ASKS ME ANYTHING!

Why do I continue?

For the next little Black girl who thinks suicide is a good thing... If this message gets to you, and you're feeling down,

1) Go to Metanoia and read it.

2) Call 911 or 1-800-273-TALK -- I don't care, just do it!

3) And once you're stable, it's YOUR HEALTH and FUCK STIGMA!

4) Let's start working on how to get you better. Usually it takes a couple of courses to even understand. Then it takes you doing a few mood trackers. I've used this one for free, there are others.
You can do pencil and paper. And show your providers.

5) If it is environmental...Like you live in a place that drives you crazy, just do a blog series of how much you hate it. Get it out of you. Don't let bad tapes/CDs/playlists fester inside your head. Get it out. Physical fitness with light weight training is really good for that and remember to hydrate.

That's all I'm going to give for now. But visit me on Facebook.


Monday, August 11, 2014

Condolences to the Robin Williams family and loved ones.


I grew up with Robin Williams comedy. His comic genius was extraordinary. I know he has been through many things in his life, and not every day can be funny, but I still admire him as a person and in his work. It is sad that he took his life, but as a fellow sufferer, I can understand where he was coming from. Introspection is premature in this instance.

Just know, you need a plan rather than the spontaneous. And it appears this instance is spontaneous.

Friday, July 25, 2014

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Thursday, July 24, 2014

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Beauty and the Bipolar. My Grandmother and Me.




This lovely picture is circa 1930 of a young Black girl who lived outside of Tallahassee.

The entire world before her. She loved to sing, dance and worship the Lord in Church. She wanted to go to nursing training school and did that for ~2 years until she met her husband.

From that point, her life became devoted to God, her husband and her children. She had 9 children.

There were times where the Black family could not make ends meet. Where the husband had to travel all over to make money. There were times that there was little food and magically she created a full course meal.

Then her husband got stable employment and a notable position, the woman returned to college and got her bachelor's degree in education, and after her last child was ~out of diapers, she taught school in her area.

The children who attended the school came from homes were the parents were worse off that her own family, but somehow, the kids her class excelled. The children who are now adults today, still recall fond memories of the teacher.


Then the grandchildren started being born. From the second oldest daughter to the first oldest son, then down to the second oldest son, and more. The grandchildren who grew near their grandmother remember how she loved them, but strongly from 1930's style discipline. The grandchildren who grew far from their grandmother did not quite completely understand her mentality until they became a lot older.

What was so remarkable about this woman? She was not famous. She was very opinionated. She sometimes seemed haughty. What was it all about?

GRANDMOTHER was resilient in spite of it all... She took the good with the bad. She prayed on it. The Bible was a reference book for all decisions made in the family. It had to follow within those guidelines. Over time, she found her voice, she expressed it in a pleasant manner, but astutely. Her behavior for her generation was like that of Coretta Scott King. In fact she met her... Resolute, stylish, her skin was tough through her trials, so when microaggressions were raised, she use them like that "Wipe Out" TV show obstacle course. And people would say all kinds of mean things to her. She should raise her head, proudly with her stance and quietly state, "They talked about Jesus Christ... You saw what they did to Him."

Living in the South, around White Supremacists racists, she recalled an incident when she was returning from somewhere on a dirt road when some White boys ran her off the road in their truck. She said if she did not jump out of the way, she would have been hit. But she broke her coccyx tailbone, the last bone in her vertabral column when she jumped. I think that hurt her emotionally as those were her experiences in racism.

Her education is what propelled her for debate. When she was a teenager, she could argue her points legitimately. However, this was Depression and early 1930s and women, especially Black Women had little or no agency to move beyond their dreams. The fact she got married very young, 1934 and the home was hard to keep, without God, somehow, it worked for my grandparents. How it worked, snippets are there.

The reality is, it was no picnic or sunshine for the two of them, but the fortitude and choices they made. I believe they were very smart, intellectually. But they had to be wise. My grandfather loved the Bible as much, but he knew how to speak eloquently with a commanding voice. My grandmother was more reserved, but you HEARD her words.

When I became a young adult, I had a chance to spend a lot of time with my grandparents. I did not grow up around them, so whenever I could, I'd leave Spelman and go to Daytona Beach to speak to them about life. I would not have graduated from Spelman if I did not visit my grandparents. My grandfather told me his expectations that resonated with me. My grandmother told me how to do it through the Lord, chapter and verse.

As I got older, I watched my grandmother's mannerisms, style and grace. They were not like my parents, not many of my parents contemporaries. They were not like anything I watched on television. My grandmother was too illustrious, too glamorous, and way too fabulous for the comprehension of anyone on television.

When she would visit my parents, she would love to shop for anything in the mall. She would go to Neiman Marcus and test the lotions and the snooty counter woman would remark with a microaggression, "that's blah blah blah expensive..."  My grandmother would happily reply, "Oh? Give me some more!"

Very few of my friends had elder women like that that they respected.

I was fortunate to have her prominent in my early adult life. Black women are finding their stance and voice in ways to achieve their dreams. I think that is amazing and important. I am of a different generation, where my generation barely has voice, but has a lot of agency. The younger women are just..."WOW!" However, I'm saddened to read their bitter tone sometimes, I catch myself with those feels, I'm amaze they can say it so succinctly and it is real, and it is painful without much recourse. I wonder how these women will stride through life. It's already hard. And to put on a happy face seems dumb and old. While one can catch more flies with sugar than with salt, these young ladies are tired of cowtowing to that. I agree, wholeheartedly. But is that the battle here? Or the war? Because if it is only the battle, being enraged and using your voice on blogs for it is short-lived and temporary and not a great strategy for winning this war.  Of course assuming there is war and if there should be one -- forget the fact that is a very male dominated construct.

I just go back wondering what my grandmother would say about all of this... She would say:

With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse human beings, who have been made in God’s likeness. 10 Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers and sisters, this should not be. 11 Can both fresh water and salt water flow from the same spring? 12 My brothers and sisters, can a fig tree bear olives, or a grapevine bear figs? Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water. ~James 3:9-12

Out of all the people who can work wonders on me without psychiatric degrees or any formal degrees in psychology, my grandmother calmed me when I was at my worst mental state with bipolar. 

I have to remember one of her favorite Bible verses was Proverbs 3:5

Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.

People around me can bash me, demean me, destroy me and hate me. But in the end, it is just me and they cannot touch that, because it belongs to God. 

That is the way I will continue living my life until I die.



Monday, July 14, 2014

More people have kidney stones because they are dehydrated.

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More people are getting kidney stones because they are dehydrated. What can be done? Drink more water! How much depends on what your healthcare provider says. Generally 8 glasses per day or ~1-2 Liters per day. Good water. Clean water. Pure and balanced water.

Water - H2O is quintessential for life. We cannot survive without water. When we fail to consume adequate amounts of water, we suffer. Water = Life. It is the conduit to our soul. So if you have clean water, you are truly blessed and you should drink it. If your water is not clean, that requires experiences beyond the scope of this blog. No offense to those who don't have clean water - I would not know?

As I understand it, it must be boiled, then filtered for potability. As to the process, I do not know. There are Iodine tablets, but they only last so long.

Water as a resource of potability will be lacking in the future. We have not conserved our water. We must find ways to do that.