I just had another birthday! Whoo hoo. I appreciate all my well-wishers! They were truly loving. Actually, this birthday was not as "introspective" as the one previously because this one was not a milestone birthday. And I had a wonderful time! No worries! My femaleness rebelled against me though, but it was all good. Thankfully, the body can be cleaned!
I convinced my loved ones to take me to the casino. I, like my mother, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE the casino--especially, the penny slots. The thing about penny slots is it takes money to make money. Playing a penny at a time... LOL! Not going to happen if you want to win. To win, you got pay $1 of pennies (100 pennies) to win something.
Now if you believe NO ONE wins on any of these things... While I was at the casino, old crotchety lady in a walker won $47,000 (pre tax) at one of those machines!!!
I think the "eyes in the sky" were helping her out! (I know sour grapes).
Okey, I'm s'pose to write on something related to me being a "crazy black woman" and mental illness. What you, the reader may find that as many people who exclaim I'm crazy are the one's who are probably nuts themselves.
I got some lunacy sent to me from my state's transportation department, saying I got an infraction for driving in the HOV lane, per the report from a "concerned motorist".
The backstory: Look, in 1991, my identity was stolen by someone who impersonated me in a personalized licensed plated car that ran a red light without a license, insurance an no seat belt. The person gave my same first name & last name, same month and birth year--different day! When the person failed to appear in court, they ran the metrics through their database and my name came up and I got the notice. In 1991, NOTHING like that happened to me. When I called about the resolution of my case, the judicial system failed me and they told me there is a warrant out for my arrest. That was when I lost my composure and became fearful of going to jail for something I did not do!!! Provable by documents I held, not ever owning or driving that make of the car with a personalized vehicle license plate, nor the insurance covering that lunacy! Needless to say, all my identification material had to be changed from that time and I had to clean it up.
So I am VIGILANT when it comes to any report by any office of authority, especially that related to law enforcement.
My state has a "report a car" system. I think that is a violation of my privacy. The ONLY person who is to read anything on my car is a law enforcement officer who I pay taxes to support. I am not into this "Big Brother" tattling without specific training or ability to enforce the law anyhow? Then, there is so much road rage these days, some people report because they have a "score to settle" or a vendetta against various people. And do is stop the behavior? And who are they to stop it?
Here is this issue for me: THE ONLY PERSON THAT NEEDS TO READ ANY OF MY REQUIRED LEGAL DOCUMENTATION AS IT RELATES TO MY MOTORIZED VEHICLE IS A LAW ENFORCEMENT OFFICER! I ONLY WANT INFORMATION FROM THE STATE THAT IS A DIRECT REPORT FROM THAT LAW ENFORCEMENT OFFICER! UNLESS I SPECIFICALLY REQUEST BY CERTIFIED RETURN RECEIPT AND NOTARIZED DOCUMENTATION, OR A LEGAL COURT SUBPOENAS IT, I DO NOT WANT SOME RANDOM "CONCERNED MOTORIST" VIOLATING MY PRIVACY OF MY VEHICLE INFORMATION! IT HAS BEEN REPEATEDLY SHOWN THAT EYE-WITNESSES ARE OFTEN BEREFT OF ACCURACIES OF THE REALITIES OBSERVED!!!
I don't know who has accused me? I deserve to look that person in the eye! To know my accuser! I don't know the times, dates, locations, etc. regarding how and when I committed this infraction? I do not drive that often, so I am not on the freeway daily and I would know if I was in the HOV lane or not--I have been driving for over 25 years! I have only driven in the HOV lanes when I had the required number of people in my car! So, when someone tattles on me to the State about what I do in the privacy of my own vehicle--and that means, s/he made a report to the transportation department, giving my vehicle license plate information, given my backstory, I worry that my identity has been compromised.
Now, if someone wants to wear the big shoes that I fill online, good luck! I'd like to meet that hacker, because that would be what it would take. And other online information stolen from me would be a crime ring which is probably on the FBI list. But, for some random "concerned motorist" is probably NOT a hacker/crime ring/etc. It is more likely someone who is selfish, egotistical, self-righteous, angry, vengeful, bigoted, and probably bashes others to get a leg up into the world. Usually these kinds of people get cancers, the spiritual people say that they have not let go or forgiven the sins of the past. It is worth it to report people who you think slighted you on the road, especially when you don't know them from a can of paint?
Which brings me to my female issues: Last year I had major woman's looksee surgery. Fortunately, I was healthy! And my female health is painful every month and it goes in waves, 2 apexes. Anywho, I could take several medications to regulate this process, but I just don't want to fight the side effects anymore. And what works is simple: physical exercise with a strong cardiovascular and isometric component, lots of water till thirst quenching, and mindfulness... It works better than any muscle relaxer or real pain pill given to me or whatever... When the migraines hit me 2-3 days after my femaleness, I do need powerhouse pills, but I have found that strong caffeinated beverages work better--in moderation.
So, now when I drive in traffic, I practice my mindfulness. I play my environmental music--also called "goat music" by the hub--and I respond to all angered driving from a place of peace. WOW! It works for me!!!
So, how am I making gross violations in the HOV lanes noticed by some "concern motorist" when I am driving my vehicle from that perspective? It does not make sense? I am unemployed, I have no benefits left, I don't have a job that would take me around an HOV lane, so, I just do not understand and I think it is foul to "rat out" your fellow motorists who drive when you are not a law enforcement officer. I can understand reporting an accident, or what happened to me, when someone got out of his car to beat up the driver in front of him. But, if someone who you feel ought not drive in the HOV lane, if the police officer pulls them over, hey, that's his/her ticket... Not yours! If you feel its your life's purpose to tattle on other drivers on what you think is an infraction, random "concerned motorist"--WOW! Dude you really need to get a life!